dressy casual

Should I go with dress casual or casual casual? This is one of the questions I am contemplating, what do you think, and which outfit do you think of them is the best? I know alot of questions, please help!

Dress casual outfit 1: Sorry about the phone it rang just as the camera was flashing, and please ignore the not done hair and no make up

Shoes for dress casual 1:
Dress casual 2: Sorry its so blurry, but its a red tie halter with blue beads around the tie
shoes for dress casual 2:Dress casual 3: Sorry for the sour-puss face!


with these hot hot shoes!
Ok thats all my dress casual, now onto a new post for the casual casual clothes! Please leave me a comment if you like any of these or if you can think of any mix-n-match i can do with them!

Engagement pictures 1

OK this is most likely going to be a few posts long so be ready! Mark and I are getting out pictures taken on Sunday. His Dad has photographed weddings before and is coming in town this weekend and has agreed to take our pictures. If they are good and I don't look too bad then they will be our engagement pictures and save us alot of money! So I am trying to figure out what outfit to wear and I have alot of options. I took pictures of each of them so leave a comment on which outfit you like!

First the outfit I am wearing for our "dressy" pictures

Balloon glow

So Friday night a big group of us went to the Balloon glow in Forrest Park. We had a blast and saw some interesting balloons and pretty fireworks. Mark and I drove up from his house, and when it was time to leave decided to go over to the Worlds Fair Pavilion because traffic was a mess to get out. We fell in love with it and are seriously considering a wedding reception there. We also decided some of our engagement pictures will be there (more on that in a new post in a few minutes). We just sat there looking out over the fountain and park for an hour and talked. It was one of the best times we have had in a very long time! Gosh how I love that man. But anyways onto some pics of the glow, beware not the greatest of quality!

On a quest...

to be more positive! This is my new goal. No more being negative, no more being down, no more getting worked up over the little things. Life is to short for me to be unhappy. If studying is getting me down I walk away from it, and give myself a chance to relax. If Mark does something to bother me, no more yelling and stonewalling but simple communication. I'm getting off the "crazy cycle" it has ruled my life for too long. "Energizing cycle" here I come!

I'm also going to get out more and meet new people. I need to get over my fears of meeting new people, no more getting sick when I am goiong to do something. Although I am not sure how well this is going to work considering I still get nervous when I am going to meet up with my friends of like 15 years. I always think what if I have the wrong time, wrong place, wrong day, what if I am not dressed appropriately. Always something. But I have decided to join the "book club" that the fantastic girls on STWed are starting up, i figure this is a good low key way to start, and it will ensure that I have something to talk about. Lets jsut hope i will have the courage to get my butt out of the car and go in!

Wish me luck on this new goal! Oh and if you are wondering about the "crazy" and "energizing" cycles i recommend you read the book "Love and Respect" by Dr. Emmerson Eggerichs.

BLAH

Yea that's how I feel, BLAH. For the past 2 or so weeks that's it. No excitement no pleasure nothing just Blah. On Sunday for a little bit I was happy, I saw some friends I hadn't seen in over a year and it was great! I think I really just needed to get out and see people other than those I see every week. Now if i could just get the rest of my life out of a rut. I sometimes wonder if maybe I am depressed, every night for the past two weeks I have cried myself to sleep thinking of grandma, my mood hardly ever gets above "OK" and most of the time its alot lower than that. I should probably go see a doctor but if you know me you also know that won't happen. Yes i want to be a doctor, yes I am working towards that goal (even though it isn't going well) but I still don't like to GO to the doctor. I can just hope that eventually I will get out of this. With my wonderful fiance, family and friends I am sure I will. I love them all to death and hope they don't think my mood or reflections are in any way a blast on them, its not. I'm just blah

Emotions!

Oh my gosh, today has been a whirlwind of emotions! It started out this afternoon with Mom calling me and telling me that they weren't going to be home for dinner and it would be just me. So my first emotion was loneliness, I didn't want to be alone tonight. Then it went into hope as i thought hey I can go to Mark's house tonight. But then I got into the mood of I don't want to be around people. I snapped at my Dad and I never do that! Then he came up to find out if I was pissed at him and when talking to him I almost burst into tears. And now I have been crying all night, at least I know some of why that is. I got to thinking about grandma tonight and how much I miss her and how much she really did mean to me. But that was only some of the crying, the rest....I don't know! I never cry, and now I can't stop. ARGHHHHHH what is wrong with me! HELP!

Cub!

So I took some pictures of Cub over the past few weeks and I thought I'd post them up for you all to see. This first one is her with the Get Well card that her grandma S sent her when we first took her to the vet and found out she had a bacterial infection in her intestines. She also got a $10 gift card to Petsmart to go pick out a toy!

This is her with her rope toy, she does love to play rope!And this is her with her skunk toy that she got with her gift card
Those are all my Cubby pictures for now, hope you all enjoy them!