don't know

I don't know whats going on with me, but I feel blah. I don't have a job even though I have sent out what feels like hundreds of applications.  I have an interview at Target on Monday, it's not what I want to do with my life, but at least for now it would be money coming in.  Now I just hope I get it, I want to be working, I want to feel like a productive member of society, I want to have money, even though it will all be going to paying back student loans that are pretty much worthless to me now. I wish I would have been able to speak my mind before I started school, then I wouldn't have these freaking loans.

Sometimes I feel about as tall as an ant. I feel worthless, I feel stupid, I feel like a lump.  I know I am not the only one, and I know I'm not it just sucks that it's so hard to come out of this funk.  Any advice, what do you do when you get like this? I think I am going to go have some wine.  Tomorrow is the St. Pat's parade, maybe that will help pull me out, some good time with friends.