Friday, March 11, 2011

don't know

I don't know whats going on with me, but I feel blah. I don't have a job even though I have sent out what feels like hundreds of applications.  I have an interview at Target on Monday, it's not what I want to do with my life, but at least for now it would be money coming in.  Now I just hope I get it, I want to be working, I want to feel like a productive member of society, I want to have money, even though it will all be going to paying back student loans that are pretty much worthless to me now. I wish I would have been able to speak my mind before I started school, then I wouldn't have these freaking loans.

Sometimes I feel about as tall as an ant. I feel worthless, I feel stupid, I feel like a lump.  I know I am not the only one, and I know I'm not it just sucks that it's so hard to come out of this funk.  Any advice, what do you do when you get like this? I think I am going to go have some wine.  Tomorrow is the St. Pat's parade, maybe that will help pull me out, some good time with friends.


Cecilia said...

:o( Cheer up. I've been feeling pretty cruddy lately. I like my job but I cannot stand the people I work with. It's to the point that I loathe going to work. This has NEVER happened to me in my life. Gives me motivation to pay of bills and be a SAHM. I just focus on that and plan on things to cheer me up like the gym or coffee.

EWebey said...

One of the great things I heard over the weekend was:
stop thinking about what god isn't doing and think about what he IS doing...He has great plans for you and things don't always work out the way WE want them, but they work out. Chin up!